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03 October 2007 @ 07:47 pm
Title: Understand.
Author: schrei_vox
Rating: PG.
Pairing: Hankyung/Henry
POV: 3rd
Summary: "They don't like me..."
Status: Complete.
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything. ‘Nuff said.
Author Notes: I though there should be a little Hankyung/Henry lovin'. Amirite?

"They don't like me..."

Hankyung blinked and turned his milky brown eyes to Henry, head tilted.


Henry sighs, “You know what I mean, hyung..."

"No, I don't."

Henry is young and naïve and tired of being lied to, this Hankyung knows. Hankyung knows exactly what he's talking about, he just chooses not to understand.

Understanding means having to explain.

Henry turns his twinkling eyes to Hankyung, his face sullen and fatigued, arms draped loosely at his sides. Hankyung notices how the moonlight hits him at the exact right angle that makes him look angelic. Beautiful, even.

Henry purses his lips in thought then sighs, catching on to Hankyung's little game, "The fans, the other Super Junior members...why don't they like me?"

Hankyung sighs and looks over the balcony, down at the bright lights and classic sounds that make Seoul. He thinks a moment, then turns back to Henry.

"They like you."

He can feel the lie staining lips and dripping down his chin, burning him like acid. But he keeps a straight face. He's expert at this.

Henry, though, isn't buying it.

"I heard Heechul talking to Donghae about how I'll split up the band. They all completely ignore me, the members I mean. And I keep seeing comments on the 'net how I'll ruin everything." His voice is small and shaky and Hankyung almost feels disgusted about how easily he’s breaking down.

Hankyung doesn't know what to say, so he pulls Henry into a tight hug and breathes him in, breathes in the stress, the abandonment, the hurt. He runs his fingers through Henry's hair, not really knowing if the gesture was soothing but knowing he had to do something.

"Why don't they like me?"

"I like you."

"Am I not good enough?"

"I think you're perfect."

Hankyung's words are a collection of useless syllables that drop from his lips and topple to the floor, forming a pool he's slowly drowning in. Henry just sobs on his shoulder, so young, so naive, so tired, and Hankyung just kisses the top of his head. He pretends the kisses are magic and are slowly dissolving all Henry's pain and worry and replacing them with warmth and happiness.

He untangles the webs surrounding Henry, he drains away the sadness.

Henry cries. Hankyung pretends.

Several minutes (hours? years?) pass before Henry lifts himself up to see Hankyung, not bothering in pulling away from the warmth radiating of his hyung’s body, and turn those powerfully twinkling eyes at him.

“You like me?”

“I like you.”

“You think I’m good?”

“I think you’re perfect.”

They stare at each other, breathing coming out in small clouds as the temperature drops, but both boys feeling warmer than ever. Hankyung thinks that if he were to move down a few inches his lips would meet Henry’s. But only for a second. Only for a second.

“If you like me…and you think I’m perfect…then nothing else matters.” Henry says finally, nodding to himself for confirmation before settling his head back on Hankyung’s shoulder.

Hankyung sighs out shakily and wraps his arms around Henry. He knows that if the other Super Junior members were to come out here and see Henry on his lap, clinging on to him for dear life, he’d have to explain (he hated explaining). He knows that it’s getting colder and that they should go inside. He knows his heart shouldn’t be beating rapidly agaisnt his chest like this.

Hankyung knows.

But, see, he doesn’t care.

Current Mood: hungryhungry
🍷undomiel on October 4th, 2007 03:11 am (UTC)

This = amazing. 8DDD
catnip1613: Lucky Star Sungmincatnip1613 on October 4th, 2007 03:16 am (UTC)
So amazingly awesome and adorable and sigh.... <33333
Jessinorinori_junno on October 4th, 2007 03:40 am (UTC)

ana_zidana_zid on October 4th, 2007 04:03 am (UTC)
Ohhh!! I like this one.. eheh... <3
Dayablessedangel13 on October 4th, 2007 05:25 am (UTC)

I like this a LOT! <33333
chocochinnochocochinno on October 4th, 2007 06:45 am (UTC)
this is the 1st time i read a cute naive henry~~~
enchanted1312 on October 4th, 2007 10:50 am (UTC)
aah, that's so loved. if someone you loved thinks you're perfect, then that's all that mattered, ne? i totally adore this, the breaking down part and hankyung not wanting to understand what's the other man was feeling. i loved it. ^^
thenummyone: Haeluvthenummyone on October 5th, 2007 08:51 pm (UTC)

my heart cries for henry. that was so sweet.
"Nyaya" - M: Yamapi ♥nyappygirl95 on October 6th, 2007 04:44 pm (UTC)
I fxcking luff it. ♥♥♥

Nope, still not alive... I just have a few minutes free from evil parents.
boris: 이특 + 성민barti_ddu on October 13th, 2007 04:38 pm (UTC)
Loved this ♥
♫~ my flow is hotter than the flash from the click: 001comicbookending on October 13th, 2007 06:07 pm (UTC)
Beautiful. <3
It makes me kinda sad that the other members don't like Henry in this, but, well, at least he has Hannie.
kimii03: awesumkimii03 on October 14th, 2007 08:08 am (UTC)
tyrelingtyreling on October 14th, 2007 08:38 pm (UTC)
Lovely sad, sad fic. Poor Henry ;_;.
Nice work~! Please keep it up and look after your health.
ishougen: Henry Sparklesishougen on April 6th, 2008 09:27 pm (UTC)

It's so sweet. <3

Henry cries. Hankyung pretends.

Luna Memoria: Henryaznk_popaddict on June 23rd, 2008 02:43 am (UTC)
Not Enough HanRy Love
But, see, he doesn’t care.

That line was love ^^

You're right, though.

There is just not enough HanRy love xP
Luna Memoria: Nostalgic Henryaznk_popaddict on July 25th, 2008 01:56 am (UTC)
Omo, when i remembered this fic, it half inspired me to write an angsty HanRy fic^^

Henry's crying in that one too...
plastikxteukieplastikxteukie on October 7th, 2009 09:20 am (UTC)
i love google!
and this fic!
HanRy <3 <3 <3 <3
much loves ^^